People who have known me know that I get suicidal at times, maybe frequently! Bad? I don't think so! For people who know me really well also know that I am not going to to that crazy thing. The thought of actually doing it is completely out of the mind!
I get suicidal maybe for some reason and sometimes just for the sake of it. Others might be tensed at this but please for the sake of devil, don't be. I enjoy these moments, some sadistic pleasure I get out of it. Today I was thinking if there is anything positive I get out of it. You might be thinking that what can such a pessimistic thing provide a positive side. Surprisingly it provided me many.
The first positive thing I came to know of is fearless attitude! Just after getting out of a suicidal attack, I am like a fearless person, as if anything happens, it doesn't really matter. For me to survive, this is very important as I screw things a lot. So, to live a healthy life I need to have this fearless nature and suicidal tendencies provide me that in plenty!
The next thing that it provides is a sense of living for the moment, no matter if tomorrow comes or not! This is also very essential for me to enjoy life, only after coming out of suicidal thinking that I realize I need to live it for the moment, for what I have now, doesn't matter if its going to be there tomorrow or not, I need to enjoy it. Same is with life, it won't be there tomorrow but now, just live it!
Another thing that it does is it take off the expectation level from myself, its good as expectations kill. Everyday is like a victory if you don't have any expectation, every day you seem to win something! Everyday its like something new and there is no stagnant thing.
Quite a few advantages and seems like I need to get suicidal more often to get the most out of this mysterious and funny thing called life!
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hmm to aaj kya hua?
wow..... sukki man........ hats off....
u can provide an argument in favor of being suicidal..... thats sumthn.... and what is best is.... it still sounds feasible and is a good read....[:p]
Nice one[:p]
damit !
so it was all a lie.....
u drive pleasure frm ..being labeled a person harboring suicidal tendencies.....n all dis while i thought I m nt d only one wid such feelings... :( :P
Hmmmm... Good ... quite a few advantages and if u like to get suicidal more often to get the most out of this mysterious and funny thing called life!!! ....
Here are some... "Creative ways to kill yourself" ....
http://bookophobic.blogspot.com/2005/08/creative-ways-to-kill-yourself.html
Try it on ... :-P
Nice reading!! your blog is kind of reading an adolescent mind...the whole process of growing up, the challenges you suffer and how you cope up them....good keep on writing...who knows what would you be writing by the time you've grown up into an adult :)
wah wah
what a justification :O
u know there is provision of hang till death as punisment for suicide attempt =))
khade khade
Hell!!!!!!
i had already posted a comment here.... but here iam... back again.... reading this crap....... cos this is feasable in my case as well.
Today even i am feeling suicidal, and the only thing in my mind is..... to get back somehow..... to change all this...... i know i can...... only i am bound by some fucking rules..... which are delaying the process, but i know.... one day...... i shall break all the shackles....
i dint knew i will be coming back tm comment on the etnicity and applicability of this post, since last time i posted on the quality of write up.
I agree, Its the same case with me.
agreed with u 101 % , u just ate my words ...
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