I don't know what to write here, moreover I am writing for the sake of it. Sitting at home on New Year's eve is something that I am familiar with but this time its frustrating.
I was thinking of the times I had in Mumbai, the colony filled with people, firecrackers, stage shows, music and most importantly happiness all around. Kolkata wasn't bad either, every new year we went somewhere.
Pune, this is the 3rd and the previous 2 have been terrace parties, unattended by me but there was some sense of things taking place. This time there is no such thing. Its more frustrating because last 2 years we went to Kolkata and returned either on 30th or 31st so that kind of took the monotonousness away. This time, its disappointing.
And at the end of the day, its just another day.
Wednesday, December 31, 2008
Saturday, November 1, 2008
Pune Mirror does it again
Couple of months back, they replaced Man Utd line up with some other team and another team with Barcelona team. This time around they have at least managed to put 11 Man Utd players in probable XI list but failed to stop people from laughing at them and whoever edits the section.
Click the picture to see an enlarged view if you're having trouble watching it here. Now where do I start from? Lets start from the goalie. You see Kuszczak is in the probable XI and according to Pune Mirror he is going to wear the Number 1 Jersey. Van Der Sar retired? Was that the reason he wasn't in the team against West ham United?
Number 2 is the captain Gary Neville and he is no where in the team. Rafael Da Silva is there who wears 21. His brother who wears 20 seems to be starting the match partnering Rio Ferdinand despite of injury. Vidic on the bench that would mean.
The United midfield will feature Berbatov(9) on the right flank, Anderson(8) and Paul Scholes(18) with injury in the centre and Ole Gunnar Solskjaer the 20legend returning to club football from retirement as a left winger.
Not only this, despite having Alan Smith(14), not sure how he returned to the club (maybe this is the biggest transfer shock that will be unleashed today) and Berbatov, Ronaldo(7) will be seen as a striker in a 4-4-2 formation.
Click the picture to see an enlarged view if you're having trouble watching it here. Now where do I start from? Lets start from the goalie. You see Kuszczak is in the probable XI and according to Pune Mirror he is going to wear the Number 1 Jersey. Van Der Sar retired? Was that the reason he wasn't in the team against West ham United?
Number 2 is the captain Gary Neville and he is no where in the team. Rafael Da Silva is there who wears 21. His brother who wears 20 seems to be starting the match partnering Rio Ferdinand despite of injury. Vidic on the bench that would mean.
The United midfield will feature Berbatov(9) on the right flank, Anderson(8) and Paul Scholes(18) with injury in the centre and Ole Gunnar Solskjaer the 20legend returning to club football from retirement as a left winger.
Not only this, despite having Alan Smith(14), not sure how he returned to the club (maybe this is the biggest transfer shock that will be unleashed today) and Berbatov, Ronaldo(7) will be seen as a striker in a 4-4-2 formation.
Wednesday, October 29, 2008
The Unusual
Last time I started to write this, I wasn't able to finish as I had to attend a call, very important one. I was talking about how I got the sudden rush to write and I had nothing in mind to write. I was writing about how badly I was missing my nephew that day and to add to it, Taare Zameen Par title track was in my ears.
Today its something similar, wondering about absolutely nothing, just listening to the track. Every time I hear this, something happens to me, the lyrics and the voice are so good and the way its sung, it totally describes life of a kid.
The other day I was reading a few blogs and for a couple of them, I didn't know what to reply, I simply had no idea, I am so bad at complimenting and now at commenting on what I felt after reading their blogs. Wonder if something is wrong with me or their blogs!
That's all for this blog, I know its very unusual indeed. There are some things I am planning to write on but maybe on the next writing rush.
Today its something similar, wondering about absolutely nothing, just listening to the track. Every time I hear this, something happens to me, the lyrics and the voice are so good and the way its sung, it totally describes life of a kid.
The other day I was reading a few blogs and for a couple of them, I didn't know what to reply, I simply had no idea, I am so bad at complimenting and now at commenting on what I felt after reading their blogs. Wonder if something is wrong with me or their blogs!
That's all for this blog, I know its very unusual indeed. There are some things I am planning to write on but maybe on the next writing rush.
Tuesday, September 30, 2008
Ryan lacks
Ryan, the name I love, it lacks something. Although it has all the power and the sexiness in it, it does lack something really important. I asked everyone to call me Ryan, some did and some did not. In the beginning, it felt good when someone called me Ryan and in some days it really didn't matter who called me what.
Someone told me recently that Ryan sounds so artificial, suki is a way lot better than ryan and we entered in a tiny discussion. I did some thinking after that and found out yes I do not like Ryan. It maybe a good name but it just doesn't go with me or maybe I ould not like to be called Ryan.
Suki is what I am, it has uniqueness in it, that is how people really recognize me and maybe that is how I want people to recognize me. Thanks to that 'someone' to make me realize this and helping me not to lose my identity. >:D<
Someone told me recently that Ryan sounds so artificial, suki is a way lot better than ryan and we entered in a tiny discussion. I did some thinking after that and found out yes I do not like Ryan. It maybe a good name but it just doesn't go with me or maybe I ould not like to be called Ryan.
Suki is what I am, it has uniqueness in it, that is how people really recognize me and maybe that is how I want people to recognize me. Thanks to that 'someone' to make me realize this and helping me not to lose my identity. >:D<
Sunday, September 7, 2008
Once upon a time in my life
There was a time in my life when the world looked such a good place to be in. I used to go out, enjoy the beauty, enjoy every moment of it, used to love things and so much.
I used to make friends without thinking if it will be a 'good investment'. It was so natural, meet a person and then automatically start talking, exchange genuine smiles and then enjoy each other's company.
Those days when definition of tension was probably not to be found in the dictionary, the days where the word 'lie' was probably unknown, forget lying. The biggest of things that used to bring a smile on the face seems so vague now.
The days where knowledge was minimum, the consciousness about things surrounding was hazy, the days of pure glory, the days of pure happiness, the days of pure innocence, the days of life- carefree and never worried about the consequences.
Once upon a time... I was a kid.
I used to make friends without thinking if it will be a 'good investment'. It was so natural, meet a person and then automatically start talking, exchange genuine smiles and then enjoy each other's company.
Those days when definition of tension was probably not to be found in the dictionary, the days where the word 'lie' was probably unknown, forget lying. The biggest of things that used to bring a smile on the face seems so vague now.
The days where knowledge was minimum, the consciousness about things surrounding was hazy, the days of pure glory, the days of pure happiness, the days of pure innocence, the days of life- carefree and never worried about the consequences.
Once upon a time... I was a kid.
Saturday, August 30, 2008
Confusing
I watched a movie 'Into the wild' about a month back and 'The Namesake' few days back. Both are based on novels and had some inputs on life and they seemed to have contradicting each other, at least in my eyes they did.
In the movie 'The Namesake', when husband of an aged lady dies, she says that at last she feels free. Before that she might have been busy with loads of family things which had less to do with herself. She feels free because she is alone.
Similarly, her son, whose wife found another guy, comes back home and takes out the book he was gifted by his father. He says that he is also free. Maybe he feels that he can live on his own and doesn't need to have a wife.
Contradicting that in the movie 'Into the wild' a young man runs away from home to go to Alaska and spend 100 days. On his way he makes a few friends and gets some advices also from the good people. He makes it to Alaska and spends days all alone in the snow covered jungle, he enjoys it, he keeps on updating a diary, which eventually turned into a book.
Just as he reached the 100th day, he dies due to eating a poisonous plant. He writes "Happiness only real when shared"
Now, I am thinking if the two in the movie 'The Namesake' feel free to be alone, will they share their happiness with anyone? Will they not end up like the guy from 'Into the wild'?
In the movie 'The Namesake', when husband of an aged lady dies, she says that at last she feels free. Before that she might have been busy with loads of family things which had less to do with herself. She feels free because she is alone.
Similarly, her son, whose wife found another guy, comes back home and takes out the book he was gifted by his father. He says that he is also free. Maybe he feels that he can live on his own and doesn't need to have a wife.
Contradicting that in the movie 'Into the wild' a young man runs away from home to go to Alaska and spend 100 days. On his way he makes a few friends and gets some advices also from the good people. He makes it to Alaska and spends days all alone in the snow covered jungle, he enjoys it, he keeps on updating a diary, which eventually turned into a book.
Just as he reached the 100th day, he dies due to eating a poisonous plant. He writes "Happiness only real when shared"
Now, I am thinking if the two in the movie 'The Namesake' feel free to be alone, will they share their happiness with anyone? Will they not end up like the guy from 'Into the wild'?
Sunday, July 27, 2008
Life sucks
Life is a bitch, life sucks, life is just getting fucked, life is this and life is that. Almost all people have said this at some point in their life and for most, it is all their life is. These are the people who will complain that life is this and then think of living in a better way but when they reach the age to die, they will look back into their past and they will see that they did nothing. They lived just like the way others did- stupidly.
Society plays a huge role in life, actually to screw life. Society teaches you how to behave. It teaches you how to say good things in front of people and how to say crap about the same people when they are not around. It teaches you to be brother sister outside and inside- what a dog/bitch!
I wonder if most people think alike, if most people think life sucks and they want to change it, if most people say society sucks and they want to change it, then why the hell aren't we seeing any changes.
I hope I made sense.
Society plays a huge role in life, actually to screw life. Society teaches you how to behave. It teaches you how to say good things in front of people and how to say crap about the same people when they are not around. It teaches you to be brother sister outside and inside- what a dog/bitch!
I wonder if most people think alike, if most people think life sucks and they want to change it, if most people say society sucks and they want to change it, then why the hell aren't we seeing any changes.
I hope I made sense.
Saturday, July 19, 2008
One night @ National Highway
If you're thinking that I have copied the title language from somewhere then you're absolutely right. Someone special says that Chetan writes like me so I thought why now I write something similar to him! First of all let me tell you there is no booze and sex in this story, we don't have that luck!
Coming to the point, me and my friends were going to a restaurant, Anu-Pam and Abhi-Shake were giving birthday treats together to save money, damn donkey holes! We took an auto, shared one, to go and have some treat. We entered the national Highway and started talking all crap, all guy talks.
Everyone was speaking in fluent Hindi and for the 1st time even I was looking confident in Hindi. Then, the unknown guy opened his mouth, he said "You're going to that place and talking in Hindi? You will be beaten up, learn Marathi first when you're living in Maharashtra." The guy was sitting beside me, felt like giving a punch to his grey cells but refrained from doing so.
Anupran then says that this is India, what is MH and what is Bihar and what is UP? This is Hindustan! All of us wondered has he gone mad? He is trying to put sense in some fanatic who is a loser in real life, some auto driver or something! He continued, "This seems like England and France." Arpit then had to scold him to stop. Couple of us exchanged few words in English and then silence except the sound of vehicles!
During the dinner, everyone discussed the same thing, I kept myself occupied by day dreaming and sometimes cracking sarcastic jokes. The dinner was fine only for the people eating veg, that was me and Arpit, for the rest it was a disaster! We decided to walk home, it was some 4-5km walk, took 1 and half hours to reach as everyone was walking slowly.
This was my story of one night @ national highway, which definitely is better than Chetan Bhagat's night. Thanks for making this blog a best reader. Hope you will continue to read my blogs.
Ahhh... a blog was due for long time so just for the sake of it, I wrote this.
Coming to the point, me and my friends were going to a restaurant, Anu-Pam and Abhi-Shake were giving birthday treats together to save money, damn donkey holes! We took an auto, shared one, to go and have some treat. We entered the national Highway and started talking all crap, all guy talks.
Everyone was speaking in fluent Hindi and for the 1st time even I was looking confident in Hindi. Then, the unknown guy opened his mouth, he said "You're going to that place and talking in Hindi? You will be beaten up, learn Marathi first when you're living in Maharashtra." The guy was sitting beside me, felt like giving a punch to his grey cells but refrained from doing so.
Anupran then says that this is India, what is MH and what is Bihar and what is UP? This is Hindustan! All of us wondered has he gone mad? He is trying to put sense in some fanatic who is a loser in real life, some auto driver or something! He continued, "This seems like England and France." Arpit then had to scold him to stop. Couple of us exchanged few words in English and then silence except the sound of vehicles!
During the dinner, everyone discussed the same thing, I kept myself occupied by day dreaming and sometimes cracking sarcastic jokes. The dinner was fine only for the people eating veg, that was me and Arpit, for the rest it was a disaster! We decided to walk home, it was some 4-5km walk, took 1 and half hours to reach as everyone was walking slowly.
This was my story of one night @ national highway, which definitely is better than Chetan Bhagat's night. Thanks for making this blog a best reader. Hope you will continue to read my blogs.
Ahhh... a blog was due for long time so just for the sake of it, I wrote this.
Friday, June 6, 2008
Dengue
August-September 2005
I started reading the daily newspaper and found out that there is an epidemic in my city, its Dengue. My father was having fever and severe body ache for the last couple of days. The temperature was about 102F but soon that afternoon it rose to 104F and never came below 102F despite of taking paracetamol tablets. After he started to vomit, we thought its better to take him to hospital.
He stayed there for 10 days before returning home and just after 10 days I had fever. It read 104F and tablets could bring it down to only 103F. It was 4 in the morning and there was an exam the day after. In the morning I contacted few teachers and talked to them about my situation. They said its better to take the exam as there are issues with Admit card.
That evening about 6 my temperature went up to 105F and I was feeling very uncomfortable, the tables were not bringing temperature anywhere below 104 and I said to my parents its enough, better to take me to hospital. They did take me to hospital which had only 1 bed left, somehow of all the patients, I got in, around 10PM I got the bed and mum dad had to leave, the passes were yet to be made which would allow them to stay with me.
Next day I woke up as early as 6AM. I saw a nurse beside me and asked her out for a date. Errrr.... no I wasn't that ill, I just asked for the thermometer. I was hot, damn hot, the temperature was 106F and at that time I thought I am dead! Anyway, being mentally strong I didn't feel the fever much, I didn't look physically weak either. The temperature continued to stay above 104F for the next 4 days. The platelet count dropped to 42thousand and the ICU bells started to ring.
It was probably the 5th day when I was showing some improvement and then everything went wrong. At night the intravenous on my wrist came off as I switched sides during sleep resulting in blood to flow out of my body, freely! Somehow my father woke up before it was too late, he woke up and saw the bed sheet all red. He saw blood flowing out of the intravenous. He knew how to stop it as he was in my place couple of weeks back. I woke up after some time and was feeling very weak, I asked what happened, why are nurses around and father told me everything. I escaped death due to loss of blood!
The next day I spent sleeping, was not my usual self, never felt that weak ever in my life, my cousin sister came to see me and I wasn't able to talk properly. Wasn't able to laugh at jokes of Raju Srivastav or Sunil Pal either! The atmosphere was cagey, 1st time I felt like I have been put in some hospital!
Next day I got better and after 4-5 days the temperature finally came down and became stable around 99F. The doctors felt its safe to say bye to me and I returned home. In this period, I missed 4 exams, something to cheer about. After 3 days I took the English exam. After all this happened, whenever I get fever of say 102F, I don't feel a thing, I carry on with my usual routine and a tablet does the trick, something good that dengue did to me!
I started reading the daily newspaper and found out that there is an epidemic in my city, its Dengue. My father was having fever and severe body ache for the last couple of days. The temperature was about 102F but soon that afternoon it rose to 104F and never came below 102F despite of taking paracetamol tablets. After he started to vomit, we thought its better to take him to hospital.
He stayed there for 10 days before returning home and just after 10 days I had fever. It read 104F and tablets could bring it down to only 103F. It was 4 in the morning and there was an exam the day after. In the morning I contacted few teachers and talked to them about my situation. They said its better to take the exam as there are issues with Admit card.
That evening about 6 my temperature went up to 105F and I was feeling very uncomfortable, the tables were not bringing temperature anywhere below 104 and I said to my parents its enough, better to take me to hospital. They did take me to hospital which had only 1 bed left, somehow of all the patients, I got in, around 10PM I got the bed and mum dad had to leave, the passes were yet to be made which would allow them to stay with me.
Next day I woke up as early as 6AM. I saw a nurse beside me and asked her out for a date. Errrr.... no I wasn't that ill, I just asked for the thermometer. I was hot, damn hot, the temperature was 106F and at that time I thought I am dead! Anyway, being mentally strong I didn't feel the fever much, I didn't look physically weak either. The temperature continued to stay above 104F for the next 4 days. The platelet count dropped to 42thousand and the ICU bells started to ring.
It was probably the 5th day when I was showing some improvement and then everything went wrong. At night the intravenous on my wrist came off as I switched sides during sleep resulting in blood to flow out of my body, freely! Somehow my father woke up before it was too late, he woke up and saw the bed sheet all red. He saw blood flowing out of the intravenous. He knew how to stop it as he was in my place couple of weeks back. I woke up after some time and was feeling very weak, I asked what happened, why are nurses around and father told me everything. I escaped death due to loss of blood!
The next day I spent sleeping, was not my usual self, never felt that weak ever in my life, my cousin sister came to see me and I wasn't able to talk properly. Wasn't able to laugh at jokes of Raju Srivastav or Sunil Pal either! The atmosphere was cagey, 1st time I felt like I have been put in some hospital!
Next day I got better and after 4-5 days the temperature finally came down and became stable around 99F. The doctors felt its safe to say bye to me and I returned home. In this period, I missed 4 exams, something to cheer about. After 3 days I took the English exam. After all this happened, whenever I get fever of say 102F, I don't feel a thing, I carry on with my usual routine and a tablet does the trick, something good that dengue did to me!
Thursday, May 29, 2008
Blabbering
I know you have been dying to read something written by me but damn this so called education and its examinations. Its keeping me away from writing any damn thing but the papers! I will be back soon after exams, hopefully.
Oh wow this is going to be my shortest blog ever! This is! Yeppie! :D
Oh wow this is going to be my shortest blog ever! This is! Yeppie! :D
Thursday, April 24, 2008
Expectations kill!
Its human nature to expect something. Be it be marks from exam or how the other people will behave with you. Expecting what you will get as a gift and expecting what you will get from your boss after doing a good job.
I also used to expect until it really fucked up my life. I expected to get good marks, I expected my friends to understand me, I expected my parents to buy me things and when expectations were not fulfilled, bang, things went bad. One time it went worse!
Why do we need to expect at all? I left expecting things and got to hear its a pessimistic approach. How is that pessimistic? Will my expecting something bring a change to what I am going to get? It will never! Moreover, if I expect to get a condom on my birthday and I get it, it will be so normal. The element of surprise to make me happy will be missing!
Expectations can land you in lot of trouble, say you're expecting your friend to save your ass when you have been caught doing something illegal and the friend doesn't help you then you are watching him as a villain, you're blind towards what might be going in his mind, you're not at all seeing his side, the difficulties he has in helping you. You're taking your friend for granted! He has is ethics, why should he be acting on your expectations?
Expecting good marks also never helps for you're never going to get it, well most of you! You expect to get 60 and you get 40, you're sad, you expect nothing and you get 40, its like you have got something! Even if you get 60 after expecting 60, it will be like a normal thing for you, yeah I have expected this, you won't be that happy!
I have left expecting about 2 years back and everyday I get surprised, everyday I feel yeah something new happened. Life has been fun this way!
I also used to expect until it really fucked up my life. I expected to get good marks, I expected my friends to understand me, I expected my parents to buy me things and when expectations were not fulfilled, bang, things went bad. One time it went worse!
Why do we need to expect at all? I left expecting things and got to hear its a pessimistic approach. How is that pessimistic? Will my expecting something bring a change to what I am going to get? It will never! Moreover, if I expect to get a condom on my birthday and I get it, it will be so normal. The element of surprise to make me happy will be missing!
Expectations can land you in lot of trouble, say you're expecting your friend to save your ass when you have been caught doing something illegal and the friend doesn't help you then you are watching him as a villain, you're blind towards what might be going in his mind, you're not at all seeing his side, the difficulties he has in helping you. You're taking your friend for granted! He has is ethics, why should he be acting on your expectations?
Expecting good marks also never helps for you're never going to get it, well most of you! You expect to get 60 and you get 40, you're sad, you expect nothing and you get 40, its like you have got something! Even if you get 60 after expecting 60, it will be like a normal thing for you, yeah I have expected this, you won't be that happy!
I have left expecting about 2 years back and everyday I get surprised, everyday I feel yeah something new happened. Life has been fun this way!
Tuesday, April 15, 2008
Meaningless
When people feel bad or they are sad, when people are down, they talk to other people, many talk to me and after a some time they feel light, they feel good, some feel relieved, some thank me for listening to them. As far as I am concerned, I feel good when they say that they are feeling better. I feel good as I have somehow brought smile to a face. I feel good for doing this.
But, when its my turn, when I am down, when I am in a terrible condition, I prefer to stay away, I prefer not to talk about it to people, thinking that my talking to them might make them sad, thinking they might be not at all interested in listening to crap, thinking some might become confused after they find out what a confusing creature I am. Maybe some might not provide any kind of support at all, maybe some will make my condition worse.
And there I go, always going through the tough road, talking to myself for endless hours and then coming up with some kind of solution! Sometimes, solutions never come and that bugs me a lot, yet my mind says not to trouble others, I suck!
But, when its my turn, when I am down, when I am in a terrible condition, I prefer to stay away, I prefer not to talk about it to people, thinking that my talking to them might make them sad, thinking they might be not at all interested in listening to crap, thinking some might become confused after they find out what a confusing creature I am. Maybe some might not provide any kind of support at all, maybe some will make my condition worse.
And there I go, always going through the tough road, talking to myself for endless hours and then coming up with some kind of solution! Sometimes, solutions never come and that bugs me a lot, yet my mind says not to trouble others, I suck!
Thursday, April 10, 2008
Suicidal Tendencies!
People who have known me know that I get suicidal at times, maybe frequently! Bad? I don't think so! For people who know me really well also know that I am not going to to that crazy thing. The thought of actually doing it is completely out of the mind!
I get suicidal maybe for some reason and sometimes just for the sake of it. Others might be tensed at this but please for the sake of devil, don't be. I enjoy these moments, some sadistic pleasure I get out of it. Today I was thinking if there is anything positive I get out of it. You might be thinking that what can such a pessimistic thing provide a positive side. Surprisingly it provided me many.
The first positive thing I came to know of is fearless attitude! Just after getting out of a suicidal attack, I am like a fearless person, as if anything happens, it doesn't really matter. For me to survive, this is very important as I screw things a lot. So, to live a healthy life I need to have this fearless nature and suicidal tendencies provide me that in plenty!
The next thing that it provides is a sense of living for the moment, no matter if tomorrow comes or not! This is also very essential for me to enjoy life, only after coming out of suicidal thinking that I realize I need to live it for the moment, for what I have now, doesn't matter if its going to be there tomorrow or not, I need to enjoy it. Same is with life, it won't be there tomorrow but now, just live it!
Another thing that it does is it take off the expectation level from myself, its good as expectations kill. Everyday is like a victory if you don't have any expectation, every day you seem to win something! Everyday its like something new and there is no stagnant thing.
Quite a few advantages and seems like I need to get suicidal more often to get the most out of this mysterious and funny thing called life!
I get suicidal maybe for some reason and sometimes just for the sake of it. Others might be tensed at this but please for the sake of devil, don't be. I enjoy these moments, some sadistic pleasure I get out of it. Today I was thinking if there is anything positive I get out of it. You might be thinking that what can such a pessimistic thing provide a positive side. Surprisingly it provided me many.
The first positive thing I came to know of is fearless attitude! Just after getting out of a suicidal attack, I am like a fearless person, as if anything happens, it doesn't really matter. For me to survive, this is very important as I screw things a lot. So, to live a healthy life I need to have this fearless nature and suicidal tendencies provide me that in plenty!
The next thing that it provides is a sense of living for the moment, no matter if tomorrow comes or not! This is also very essential for me to enjoy life, only after coming out of suicidal thinking that I realize I need to live it for the moment, for what I have now, doesn't matter if its going to be there tomorrow or not, I need to enjoy it. Same is with life, it won't be there tomorrow but now, just live it!
Another thing that it does is it take off the expectation level from myself, its good as expectations kill. Everyday is like a victory if you don't have any expectation, every day you seem to win something! Everyday its like something new and there is no stagnant thing.
Quite a few advantages and seems like I need to get suicidal more often to get the most out of this mysterious and funny thing called life!
Thursday, March 27, 2008
Dreams
I dream a lot so does many others. People say don't just dream, try to live it but then there are some dreams which are very insignificant. Some dreams are just unreal. People might say why waste time in dreaming about such things? Why should one not? What's the harm? Time waste dude time waste! Ahhhh....
I would talk only about myself here. I know for sure I am here to be happy. So, I would do things that make me happy! If wasting time and dreaming does make me happy then why should I stop dreaming? At most what will happen? I will get screwed! But then I know I won't stop dreaming as it is some drug that keeps me alive!
I dream a lot, a lot of weird things, both good and bad things, I get so much lost in them that I forget where I am and what's around me. Yeah, I do lose a lot of time as none of those dreams are actually going to be attempted or achieved by me but at the end of the day, those make me smile, somehow those moments become the best time of the day. Maybe my life is just a dream!
I would talk only about myself here. I know for sure I am here to be happy. So, I would do things that make me happy! If wasting time and dreaming does make me happy then why should I stop dreaming? At most what will happen? I will get screwed! But then I know I won't stop dreaming as it is some drug that keeps me alive!
I dream a lot, a lot of weird things, both good and bad things, I get so much lost in them that I forget where I am and what's around me. Yeah, I do lose a lot of time as none of those dreams are actually going to be attempted or achieved by me but at the end of the day, those make me smile, somehow those moments become the best time of the day. Maybe my life is just a dream!
Sunday, March 23, 2008
The 'Missing' Trip
WARNING: Its very long!
I was told by my parents to get ready by 1.45 so that we all can leave around 2. I was pretty sure there is no way we will begin the journey by 3. So, I was as usual crapping on net when my father shouted at me and asked me to get ready else all will get late due to me. I said fine, I am getting ready and went off, I was ready by 1.30. I had lunch and around 1.45 I see not even a single species half ready!
Its 2 and I ask my mom, aren't we supposed to get out now and she says- "I am going to beauty parlour, we'll leave at 3". At this point I knew, its going to be 3.30. I came online again to crap more, stayed till 3, crapped around for half an hour roaming in the room and around 3.45 we were off. One thing that struck my mind is damn, I missed the sunset!
We, the three families reached Panchghani around 6.30 and went to Parsi point, every time I go there, I get to see something new and I wasn't disappointed this time also. Hell, I ain't talking about girls, I am talking about nature! This time the colour combinations made by the sun and clouds and the mountains, mesmerising, it was like a dream come true, thing I used to see in dreams were right in front of my eyes!
We could visit only one point as I made all of them late, oh wait, it was the aunts I guess, doing make up and all. After reaching hotel I said that I want to go to market. Last time I visited Mahabaleshwar market was probably in class 4. That time I said to myself- "This is where you should come for honeymoon". Well, things have changed a bit, its more crowded now and the beauty has been hit!
I knew going to market would make me frustrated but I couldn't control myself. I just had to go there, watch couples moving slowly with hand in hand. It hurts! Thank holy devil, there were 3 families, I could spend time alone whenever I wanted to without my parents bugging me! Played a bit in so called casinos, after winning some my father asked me to cash it, I said no, I am going to play will the last coin lasts and yeah, all coins used up! After playing and observing people walk hand in hand and looking at the cute new born kids, the future candidates to make me frustrated, we went back to hotel and had dinner.
Bed time, disaster is that my father booked only 2 rooms as only 2 families were supposed to come, the 3rd family made all the mess, in this season its impossible to get any room in any damn hotel with 10 times the cost! Solution- Extra bed, which is put on the ground and then- I had to sleep with 3 kids with an average age of 10. Call me paedophile, I care a damn! Meanwhile, when I was asking the adults to make noise as we have come for fun, a guy comes from behind and says "We aren't able to sleep, we're a couple so please don't make much noise". I was about t say "Yeah, just say you want to make love so you need to concentrate!" but had to cut that.
After I woke up, mom asked me to take a class 7 girl to the market as she wants to drink and eat something, wow, mom asking me to take a girl to a breakfast date! What the devil, that would make me a paedophile, if sleeping with 3 under age hasn't made me yet! Anyway, the plan was cancelled soon as people were in real hurry!
Now the journey begins, don't know how many points we went to, how many kms we had to walk and how much time I made the most of the cool breeze! One thing that I will remember forever is when I was at Elephant Head. I saw a fog getting formed and rising up, none except me and my father noticed it, when said to rest, they weren't interested! Such is their passion for sight seeing! I waited for it to rise high and at one stage, it became stable. By this time, rest started to leave, my father also started calling me. I said I will wait for some time, you guys start to walk. To my surprise, a part of the fog started to rise and damn, it made shape of heart! I took the picture, I just couldn't believe what I saw. Nature also knows I am in love! :P
After all the sight seeing, we went to some strawberry garden where I did some go-karting, which was fun. People had some strawberry shake but me not being a fan of it, went for chocolate. From there we went to have lunch, had pizza and clicked few pics, it was cloudy. As soon as we got out, sat in car and started, the rain also started. The plan to Sherbaug was cancelled, so was the trip to Table Land. No problem, next time we will go there but travelling in rain at that place, its something one can not miss!
All the time I could hear adults talk everything but the place we are visiting and the beauty of it. They were talking the same thing again and again which made no sense. When they were kids, they never had problems with such things and now they are adults, there is ego, jealousy, selfishness and what not! I just hope I don't become any thing close to like that. I just hope I continue making friends and behave in the same way forever!
That's all, after that we came back home, to see there is power cut, power came and then went off again, it came again, again went and this happened frequently, just as frequently as sanjay salman gets behind the bars only to get out of it!
Wondering why the topic is "The 'missing' trip"? Well, its simple, guess what was missing? Guess Guess? Guess what was missing! give up? Well, it has to be a girl, in such a romantic place with damn romantic weather, you gotta have a girl with you! :P
I was told by my parents to get ready by 1.45 so that we all can leave around 2. I was pretty sure there is no way we will begin the journey by 3. So, I was as usual crapping on net when my father shouted at me and asked me to get ready else all will get late due to me. I said fine, I am getting ready and went off, I was ready by 1.30. I had lunch and around 1.45 I see not even a single species half ready!
Its 2 and I ask my mom, aren't we supposed to get out now and she says- "I am going to beauty parlour, we'll leave at 3". At this point I knew, its going to be 3.30. I came online again to crap more, stayed till 3, crapped around for half an hour roaming in the room and around 3.45 we were off. One thing that struck my mind is damn, I missed the sunset!
We, the three families reached Panchghani around 6.30 and went to Parsi point, every time I go there, I get to see something new and I wasn't disappointed this time also. Hell, I ain't talking about girls, I am talking about nature! This time the colour combinations made by the sun and clouds and the mountains, mesmerising, it was like a dream come true, thing I used to see in dreams were right in front of my eyes!
We could visit only one point as I made all of them late, oh wait, it was the aunts I guess, doing make up and all. After reaching hotel I said that I want to go to market. Last time I visited Mahabaleshwar market was probably in class 4. That time I said to myself- "This is where you should come for honeymoon". Well, things have changed a bit, its more crowded now and the beauty has been hit!
I knew going to market would make me frustrated but I couldn't control myself. I just had to go there, watch couples moving slowly with hand in hand. It hurts! Thank holy devil, there were 3 families, I could spend time alone whenever I wanted to without my parents bugging me! Played a bit in so called casinos, after winning some my father asked me to cash it, I said no, I am going to play will the last coin lasts and yeah, all coins used up! After playing and observing people walk hand in hand and looking at the cute new born kids, the future candidates to make me frustrated, we went back to hotel and had dinner.
Bed time, disaster is that my father booked only 2 rooms as only 2 families were supposed to come, the 3rd family made all the mess, in this season its impossible to get any room in any damn hotel with 10 times the cost! Solution- Extra bed, which is put on the ground and then- I had to sleep with 3 kids with an average age of 10. Call me paedophile, I care a damn! Meanwhile, when I was asking the adults to make noise as we have come for fun, a guy comes from behind and says "We aren't able to sleep, we're a couple so please don't make much noise". I was about t say "Yeah, just say you want to make love so you need to concentrate!" but had to cut that.
After I woke up, mom asked me to take a class 7 girl to the market as she wants to drink and eat something, wow, mom asking me to take a girl to a breakfast date! What the devil, that would make me a paedophile, if sleeping with 3 under age hasn't made me yet! Anyway, the plan was cancelled soon as people were in real hurry!
Now the journey begins, don't know how many points we went to, how many kms we had to walk and how much time I made the most of the cool breeze! One thing that I will remember forever is when I was at Elephant Head. I saw a fog getting formed and rising up, none except me and my father noticed it, when said to rest, they weren't interested! Such is their passion for sight seeing! I waited for it to rise high and at one stage, it became stable. By this time, rest started to leave, my father also started calling me. I said I will wait for some time, you guys start to walk. To my surprise, a part of the fog started to rise and damn, it made shape of heart! I took the picture, I just couldn't believe what I saw. Nature also knows I am in love! :P
After all the sight seeing, we went to some strawberry garden where I did some go-karting, which was fun. People had some strawberry shake but me not being a fan of it, went for chocolate. From there we went to have lunch, had pizza and clicked few pics, it was cloudy. As soon as we got out, sat in car and started, the rain also started. The plan to Sherbaug was cancelled, so was the trip to Table Land. No problem, next time we will go there but travelling in rain at that place, its something one can not miss!
All the time I could hear adults talk everything but the place we are visiting and the beauty of it. They were talking the same thing again and again which made no sense. When they were kids, they never had problems with such things and now they are adults, there is ego, jealousy, selfishness and what not! I just hope I don't become any thing close to like that. I just hope I continue making friends and behave in the same way forever!
That's all, after that we came back home, to see there is power cut, power came and then went off again, it came again, again went and this happened frequently, just as frequently as sanjay salman gets behind the bars only to get out of it!
Wondering why the topic is "The 'missing' trip"? Well, its simple, guess what was missing? Guess Guess? Guess what was missing! give up? Well, it has to be a girl, in such a romantic place with damn romantic weather, you gotta have a girl with you! :P
Monday, March 17, 2008
Fucked up shit
I lie in my bed
Thoughts running in my head
What the hell I am living for?
Answer to it is what I am craving for
Suicidal is what I become
When I get no answer in return
I know I ain't going to die
Before giving my life a last try
2.30 and mom drops in
Awake at this hour crapping?
Not to create a scene, I go to bed
Only to be mentally dead
I love nights, let me enjoy it
Discipline is something, follow it
What is discipline, who sets it?
Society does, you have to respect it
To hell with society
Which gives me anxiety
Let me be free, reach for the sky
Like the bird, flying high
Studies is not my priority
Nor is the 8 to 8 job
For I know
My life is short
This is what I write
When mind is full of sprite
Later when I read it
I call myself a fucked up shit!
Thoughts running in my head
What the hell I am living for?
Answer to it is what I am craving for
Suicidal is what I become
When I get no answer in return
I know I ain't going to die
Before giving my life a last try
2.30 and mom drops in
Awake at this hour crapping?
Not to create a scene, I go to bed
Only to be mentally dead
I love nights, let me enjoy it
Discipline is something, follow it
What is discipline, who sets it?
Society does, you have to respect it
To hell with society
Which gives me anxiety
Let me be free, reach for the sky
Like the bird, flying high
Studies is not my priority
Nor is the 8 to 8 job
For I know
My life is short
This is what I write
When mind is full of sprite
Later when I read it
I call myself a fucked up shit!
This is my 1st attempt at poetry!
I thank Varun and KJ for helping me write the above piece of crap!
Sunday, March 16, 2008
She killed me
She came, she conquered and she left. Damn, it was such a wonderful time. I don't know how am I going to express my feelings, errr... perverted feelings!
First let me introduce you to my bhabhi! She is damn beautiful, first time I saw her was in Kolkata and I was speechless. My brother(yeah the guy is like my brother) married to such a damn beautiful lady. I was dead. I had no words. I didn't have the guts to face her, I mean how can I even speak, she is one of the most beautiful women I have ever met!
But then, they moved to Pune, rarely saw her for few years. We shifted to Pune and they shifted to Kolkata, damn! Why such injustice? But then good news, they shifted to Pune last year which meant I could see her. Yeah call me a pervert for this but I guarantee you that almost all men have similar feelings, its just that I confess a lot!
Coming back to topic, they visited our house last year for just an hour, not enough but then I was numb. I could only say yes/no to her questions, I was just blank. Mother of a kid and still she looked awesomely beautiful. Any guy would go blank in front of her! Let me tell you one thing, she is no Katrina Kaif type, she is not artificial. My choice of girls is pretty different from what guys generally like! So yeah, she is different, you might not like her but she definitely kills me! And her nature, character, behaviour 10/10. She is such a nice person.
After 2 months I got a chance to meet her once again but wasted it, there was a Man Utd game so didn't visit their house! Call me an idiot or whatever, I care least!
Today, well I was prepared, I said to myself, just face her, she isn't going to kill a dead guy! I did it, I talked to her freely but then she frustrated me. My mom told me to take them to the terrace and I did. The couples were roaming around and discussing things, I was just left there, watching them talk and from inside I was so damn frustrated.
Then we came down and she went into kitchen to help my mom, I said why not I also help my mom and then I spent some time in the kitchen, talking to her, it was such a great moment, I didn't fumble at all, yes I could not look at her eyes continuously and talk but sometimes I did. What an achievement! I am speechless at this moment. I don't know how to describe how big it meant for me.
When she was leaving, she said bye to me and man o man, I felt like I am losing someone! Then she asked me to visit once and I said definitely. She is gone now and I am here blabbering something! On a serious note, I don't have any malicious intention, its just that she is one of the most beautiful women I have ever met and I am extremely fortunate to be related to the lady in some way!
Adora- You can kick me for all this! :P (as if you care)
First let me introduce you to my bhabhi! She is damn beautiful, first time I saw her was in Kolkata and I was speechless. My brother(yeah the guy is like my brother) married to such a damn beautiful lady. I was dead. I had no words. I didn't have the guts to face her, I mean how can I even speak, she is one of the most beautiful women I have ever met!
But then, they moved to Pune, rarely saw her for few years. We shifted to Pune and they shifted to Kolkata, damn! Why such injustice? But then good news, they shifted to Pune last year which meant I could see her. Yeah call me a pervert for this but I guarantee you that almost all men have similar feelings, its just that I confess a lot!
Coming back to topic, they visited our house last year for just an hour, not enough but then I was numb. I could only say yes/no to her questions, I was just blank. Mother of a kid and still she looked awesomely beautiful. Any guy would go blank in front of her! Let me tell you one thing, she is no Katrina Kaif type, she is not artificial. My choice of girls is pretty different from what guys generally like! So yeah, she is different, you might not like her but she definitely kills me! And her nature, character, behaviour 10/10. She is such a nice person.
After 2 months I got a chance to meet her once again but wasted it, there was a Man Utd game so didn't visit their house! Call me an idiot or whatever, I care least!
Today, well I was prepared, I said to myself, just face her, she isn't going to kill a dead guy! I did it, I talked to her freely but then she frustrated me. My mom told me to take them to the terrace and I did. The couples were roaming around and discussing things, I was just left there, watching them talk and from inside I was so damn frustrated.
Then we came down and she went into kitchen to help my mom, I said why not I also help my mom and then I spent some time in the kitchen, talking to her, it was such a great moment, I didn't fumble at all, yes I could not look at her eyes continuously and talk but sometimes I did. What an achievement! I am speechless at this moment. I don't know how to describe how big it meant for me.
When she was leaving, she said bye to me and man o man, I felt like I am losing someone! Then she asked me to visit once and I said definitely. She is gone now and I am here blabbering something! On a serious note, I don't have any malicious intention, its just that she is one of the most beautiful women I have ever met and I am extremely fortunate to be related to the lady in some way!
Adora- You can kick me for all this! :P (as if you care)
Thursday, March 13, 2008
Endless thoughts
This is going to be long, boring, frustrated, maybe thought provoking and has the potential to make anyone suicidal. So, read at your own risk! One thing for sure, you won't find a confused guy ever like me! You're free to call me a psychopath also, guess that would be the right word for me!
The thing I think about the most is future, what am I going to do? What will I be? After getting the possible answers, I don't feel like living, I feel like being a kid. As I write, I feel like spending time with kids in some orphanage would be an ideal thing for me. Now I am blank! I really don't want to become something I dislike to become but society has so much influence on a person's mind that even the strong willed people get drowned!
You might say that I am trying to run away from responsibility, well yes I am to a good extent! When I say responsibility, it means working half the day in office and leaving 1/6th of the day for your family and the rest for your dreams! My life is not that. I would spend most of the time on something that I love. I would love to spend half of the time with my family and 1/6th of the time in a job.
Look at me, did I just talk about family. Damn, I speak lot of crap! When I started writing this blog, I had in mind that I am never going to get married and now, just now I was talking about marriage. I am blank again, waiting for something to come in my mind so that I can resume my blabbering.
Yeah, I said I want to be kid all my life but if I don't do any job, it would mean I won't have money and this is where the suicidal tendencies in me comes from. Believe me, its a damn good feeling! I also have an idea about the age I will probably commit suicide, it must be around 25, maybe earlier than that, I don't know. As of now I don't see any possible way to cross 25.
You might say what happened to Old Trafford dream, guess its over. I love Man Utd and the love won't change if I visit Old Trafford or not. Yeah it will be great if I do, not sure if that will be pleasure or happiness but the thought of me being at Streetford End doesn't excite me much as much as it excites me when I see Utd play on T.V. Hypothetical scenario, can't say anything until and unless I am there!
Another thought that rules is what will happen after my death? There are very few people in the whole world who will be affected by my death, I can count them. I am sure they will be sad and broken, but that doesn't stop my suicidal tendencies! I know it won't affect 'me' in any way, I would be dust without feelings after death. I don't feel like living for them either, don't know why! As far as my nephew is concerned, he is young, it won't make any difference to him. I might make a difference to his life but somewhere I guess I am a selfish brat!
This part I am writing after 2 days and damn, I ain't a bit selfish now, its like I am not living for myself, I am like living for others, to help others and to make others happy, to give others company, doesn't matter if that means me getting screwed up! Ahhhh..... I just hope I remain same forever!
Today morning my mom said me when I woke up around 11 that we are going out for lunch. I wasn't in any mood to go out after what she did to me last night! Around 12 I cried, yeah after many months the tears actually came out! A little later I said fine, lets go. I have no idea why I did that! I had lunch and came back home, no complaints what so ever from my side!
I should end here with some positivity. Good thing is that I have stopped thinking, I have found a reason to live or should I say few reasons? Well yeah, you guys top the list, its for your guys reading this and also all the friends I have that I am living. I am living for my nephew and nieces also. Maybe someday, I will live for myself, waiting for that day to come. It will come, it will be the day I errr.... used that word lot of times so you can guess it!
I just finished writing a meaningless, frustrated and incomplete blog!
The thing I think about the most is future, what am I going to do? What will I be? After getting the possible answers, I don't feel like living, I feel like being a kid. As I write, I feel like spending time with kids in some orphanage would be an ideal thing for me. Now I am blank! I really don't want to become something I dislike to become but society has so much influence on a person's mind that even the strong willed people get drowned!
You might say that I am trying to run away from responsibility, well yes I am to a good extent! When I say responsibility, it means working half the day in office and leaving 1/6th of the day for your family and the rest for your dreams! My life is not that. I would spend most of the time on something that I love. I would love to spend half of the time with my family and 1/6th of the time in a job.
Look at me, did I just talk about family. Damn, I speak lot of crap! When I started writing this blog, I had in mind that I am never going to get married and now, just now I was talking about marriage. I am blank again, waiting for something to come in my mind so that I can resume my blabbering.
Yeah, I said I want to be kid all my life but if I don't do any job, it would mean I won't have money and this is where the suicidal tendencies in me comes from. Believe me, its a damn good feeling! I also have an idea about the age I will probably commit suicide, it must be around 25, maybe earlier than that, I don't know. As of now I don't see any possible way to cross 25.
You might say what happened to Old Trafford dream, guess its over. I love Man Utd and the love won't change if I visit Old Trafford or not. Yeah it will be great if I do, not sure if that will be pleasure or happiness but the thought of me being at Streetford End doesn't excite me much as much as it excites me when I see Utd play on T.V. Hypothetical scenario, can't say anything until and unless I am there!
Another thought that rules is what will happen after my death? There are very few people in the whole world who will be affected by my death, I can count them. I am sure they will be sad and broken, but that doesn't stop my suicidal tendencies! I know it won't affect 'me' in any way, I would be dust without feelings after death. I don't feel like living for them either, don't know why! As far as my nephew is concerned, he is young, it won't make any difference to him. I might make a difference to his life but somewhere I guess I am a selfish brat!
This part I am writing after 2 days and damn, I ain't a bit selfish now, its like I am not living for myself, I am like living for others, to help others and to make others happy, to give others company, doesn't matter if that means me getting screwed up! Ahhhh..... I just hope I remain same forever!
Today morning my mom said me when I woke up around 11 that we are going out for lunch. I wasn't in any mood to go out after what she did to me last night! Around 12 I cried, yeah after many months the tears actually came out! A little later I said fine, lets go. I have no idea why I did that! I had lunch and came back home, no complaints what so ever from my side!
I should end here with some positivity. Good thing is that I have stopped thinking, I have found a reason to live or should I say few reasons? Well yeah, you guys top the list, its for your guys reading this and also all the friends I have that I am living. I am living for my nephew and nieces also. Maybe someday, I will live for myself, waiting for that day to come. It will come, it will be the day I errr.... used that word lot of times so you can guess it!
I just finished writing a meaningless, frustrated and incomplete blog!
Monday, February 25, 2008
PrashH aka Prince
He calls himself prince but he isn't. Girls can get angry on me like they usually do. I know girls you love him a lot but its a fact, he is no prince! Anyway, coming to this guy, I don't know when I met him, usually I do remember the 1st time I meet a guy but as I met him in Hangout Corner, I don't know what exactly was the conversation like. If I am not wrong, he said I am prash with an extra H which makes it prashH!
Anyway, we started talking and became friends as usual. This guy is very much interested in economics and politics, his threads on IC gave me an idea about it. Too bad, people rarely replied in his topic, intellectual posts getting replies in IC is something you can't expect! Moreover, all the threads of him that I've seen were long. No one had the patience to read it. It was also neutral! Neutral posts in IC are treated badly!
I don't know how we became close friends but we did become! In GR we had a lot of fun, in fact we were the ones to keep the community active! Too bad we were treated badly and both decided to quit, too bad for GR that is! That was when we started talking a lot, except the time we had late night conferences!
He has been some sort of hero for me lately, the way he did things impressed me and I am trying damn hard to have guts like this guy! His attitude of just do it and then do whatever you feel like is something I like most in him, except for his gf!(not sure if this made sense!) His gf is damn lucky to get a guy with kick ass attitude like him and so is he lucky that Dr. is damn patient! Any other girl would have kicked in his arse for what he did! Naah, don't ask him what he did!
Coming to being friends, he is always there for you but when he is experiencing mood swings, it can be a trouble for you, it wasn't for me but for some it was! Talk to him with care when he is in trouble. Hope you do know when he is in trouble. His language will be totally changed, will be kind of violent, that is when you'll know that yes, he is in trouble. Contact him personally and let him confess, it will help him to cool down!
Coming to his attitude, you will like him in the beginning but laters, you'll like him more! Ahhh... just kidding, this is a no nonsense guy with guys, so if you're a guy, keep safe distance. If you're a girl, close distance is preferred, he won't hurt you unless drunk! Ohhh coming to drunk part, he is really good stress buster when he is drunk, just talk to him and you will be rolling on floor laughing. Dude, thanks for that night!(Don't take this in a gay way!)
He impresses girls like anything, dude you do have a gf! Oh wait, men will be men! But hey, is this guy a man? I don't think so! Correction, I didn't think so! But looking at what happened in the last few days, I can say yeah he is a man!(No need to thank me for giving you this certificate). He is a bit emotional, which doesn't suit dudes like him but that's what makes him special in the eyes of girls I guess!
I guess that is what this imbecile is! For more things like what he likes and what he does, contact him! I tried to focus on his personality and behaviour!
Anyway, we started talking and became friends as usual. This guy is very much interested in economics and politics, his threads on IC gave me an idea about it. Too bad, people rarely replied in his topic, intellectual posts getting replies in IC is something you can't expect! Moreover, all the threads of him that I've seen were long. No one had the patience to read it. It was also neutral! Neutral posts in IC are treated badly!
I don't know how we became close friends but we did become! In GR we had a lot of fun, in fact we were the ones to keep the community active! Too bad we were treated badly and both decided to quit, too bad for GR that is! That was when we started talking a lot, except the time we had late night conferences!
He has been some sort of hero for me lately, the way he did things impressed me and I am trying damn hard to have guts like this guy! His attitude of just do it and then do whatever you feel like is something I like most in him, except for his gf!(not sure if this made sense!) His gf is damn lucky to get a guy with kick ass attitude like him and so is he lucky that Dr. is damn patient! Any other girl would have kicked in his arse for what he did! Naah, don't ask him what he did!
Coming to being friends, he is always there for you but when he is experiencing mood swings, it can be a trouble for you, it wasn't for me but for some it was! Talk to him with care when he is in trouble. Hope you do know when he is in trouble. His language will be totally changed, will be kind of violent, that is when you'll know that yes, he is in trouble. Contact him personally and let him confess, it will help him to cool down!
Coming to his attitude, you will like him in the beginning but laters, you'll like him more! Ahhh... just kidding, this is a no nonsense guy with guys, so if you're a guy, keep safe distance. If you're a girl, close distance is preferred, he won't hurt you unless drunk! Ohhh coming to drunk part, he is really good stress buster when he is drunk, just talk to him and you will be rolling on floor laughing. Dude, thanks for that night!(Don't take this in a gay way!)
He impresses girls like anything, dude you do have a gf! Oh wait, men will be men! But hey, is this guy a man? I don't think so! Correction, I didn't think so! But looking at what happened in the last few days, I can say yeah he is a man!(No need to thank me for giving you this certificate). He is a bit emotional, which doesn't suit dudes like him but that's what makes him special in the eyes of girls I guess!
I guess that is what this imbecile is! For more things like what he likes and what he does, contact him! I tried to focus on his personality and behaviour!
Wednesday, February 20, 2008
Idiot me!
I feel like kicking myself! I have lost my mind or maybe I never had a mind, someone kick me hard in my donkey, someone hit me in the head, someone bring me back to my senses!
I have been doing things that I never wanted to do, things that I always avoided, damn they're happening to me and I have no control what so ever over it! I am helpless!
I don't know why I am writing this blog, maybe to bring myself back to senses. I don't want anyone to read this. If you're reading this then its of no use!
I'm changing, hell yeah I am changing, never before have I been so sensitive or emotional, damn I sound like some emotional fool!
What the deuce? If I don't want anyone to read this then why am I posting this as a blog? Damn... I am going to click the "Publish Post" button now! But then I won't be surprised if I send link of this blog to everyone in my list!
I am losing control over me :(
I have been doing things that I never wanted to do, things that I always avoided, damn they're happening to me and I have no control what so ever over it! I am helpless!
I don't know why I am writing this blog, maybe to bring myself back to senses. I don't want anyone to read this. If you're reading this then its of no use!
I'm changing, hell yeah I am changing, never before have I been so sensitive or emotional, damn I sound like some emotional fool!
What the deuce? If I don't want anyone to read this then why am I posting this as a blog? Damn... I am going to click the "Publish Post" button now! But then I won't be surprised if I send link of this blog to everyone in my list!
I am losing control over me :(
Monday, February 18, 2008
Ritika and Ryan
I have been told by Ritika to write on our relationship... esle she will kill me! Damn... Who made her a daku?
Coming to the point... I don't know what is the relationship... is it friendship or twins or love or enemy or something else... lets see!
Friendship: Yes... we certainly are friends... bad or good is a debatable topic but the bottom line is that we are friends! Ahhh... something does exist! The reason I say we are friends is simply coz we talk to each other and we have shared stories of private lives and also cracked jokes on each other!
Twins: Very much... I don't know how but the choices match so accurately! Be it be mango juice, interest in writing. The way life should be or the frustration on seeing commited couples! But then she denied to be my twin or sister... good... that leaves me with other options!
Love: It very much exists between us... the flirting and then the nice nice words I hear daily if I even say something which she doesn't like... that shows how much she loves me! I also love her... ahhh... the way she abuses... makes her look so cute! Oh wait a minute... how do I know she looks cute or hot?
Enemy: Not yet but after she reads the above points... surely an enemy! Damn... enemy with some frustrated daku... scary stuff!
Something else: In future... she will be my boss in some media company and will make me work like a donkey... I'll love it!
Oh... I almost forgot... this girl seems to be a better flirt than Shrutha!
Coming to the point... I don't know what is the relationship... is it friendship or twins or love or enemy or something else... lets see!
Friendship: Yes... we certainly are friends... bad or good is a debatable topic but the bottom line is that we are friends! Ahhh... something does exist! The reason I say we are friends is simply coz we talk to each other and we have shared stories of private lives and also cracked jokes on each other!
Twins: Very much... I don't know how but the choices match so accurately! Be it be mango juice, interest in writing. The way life should be or the frustration on seeing commited couples! But then she denied to be my twin or sister... good... that leaves me with other options!
Love: It very much exists between us... the flirting and then the nice nice words I hear daily if I even say something which she doesn't like... that shows how much she loves me! I also love her... ahhh... the way she abuses... makes her look so cute! Oh wait a minute... how do I know she looks cute or hot?
Enemy: Not yet but after she reads the above points... surely an enemy! Damn... enemy with some frustrated daku... scary stuff!
Something else: In future... she will be my boss in some media company and will make me work like a donkey... I'll love it!
Oh... I almost forgot... this girl seems to be a better flirt than Shrutha!
Sunday, February 17, 2008
PrashU- The King
I am writing this blog because prashU once asked me to write a blog on him... it was a month back or so and I said yes I will. This blog is a b'day gift to him... which is today... 18th Feb..
PrashU is the King... the King of Bollywood... he earned the title by marrying his all time favourite SRK... but this has been kept away from the world... as it might affect SRK's fan following! No wonder PrashU watches every film of SRK and loves it... even if its something like Koyla or OSO.
Jokes apart... he is a spoilt kid! Spoilt according to the society but for me he is just as frank as one should be! Sex should not be a taboo and so does R-rated stuffs... He tried to quit talking such stuffs but ended up talking R+ rated stuffs!
Thing I really admire about him is his presence of mind... he replies quickly and cracks a joke... he is quick and can turn any chat into a porn movie!!! Oh... budding film maker... so its now pretty much evident on what type of movies he is going to direct/produce!
If you talk to him... you won't be bored... and that's why he is on my friend list! I do like talking to him... people might say we are gays but no we aren't... maybe in future after my heart is broken... I might marry him as he is also a broken heart! I will write script for movies and he will produce and direct them!!! He promised me that he will make a movie on my love story so watch out for a masterpiece!!!
He is a self proclaimed pool champ but he is no where close to being contender for being a champ. In the 1st Pool tourney I don't know how he reached the finals, maybe that's just his game, somehow he does it! He is always cool while playing... it seems so from his shots... there is something in him that keeps him winning games despite playing crap! In 2nd tourney... he met Yaseen again in the semis but this time he was trashed by the champion!
I saw his pic once and trust me he is a typical huge guy... looks will be damn innocent and the way of talking will be damn good... the throw but when in mood... these guys can trash you! So, just don't make him angry, do whatever he says even if its holy shit!
A huge flop with girls, they just dislike his talks! Girls should understand that he is a frustrated, heart broken guy. Hence he is bound to go crazy and desperate! Love him once and you will know what love is... you will then say that yes... Love does ruin life!
One thing that I seriously like in him is what he thinks of love... to him love comes only once in life! And he never expects anything in return from love! This is something I also say and that scares me! Something similar to prashu is always scray for all!
Did I miss anything? Oh yeah... he is a 22 year old virgin!!! Ahhh... I feel better than him >:)
PrashU is the King... the King of Bollywood... he earned the title by marrying his all time favourite SRK... but this has been kept away from the world... as it might affect SRK's fan following! No wonder PrashU watches every film of SRK and loves it... even if its something like Koyla or OSO.
Jokes apart... he is a spoilt kid! Spoilt according to the society but for me he is just as frank as one should be! Sex should not be a taboo and so does R-rated stuffs... He tried to quit talking such stuffs but ended up talking R+ rated stuffs!
Thing I really admire about him is his presence of mind... he replies quickly and cracks a joke... he is quick and can turn any chat into a porn movie!!! Oh... budding film maker... so its now pretty much evident on what type of movies he is going to direct/produce!
If you talk to him... you won't be bored... and that's why he is on my friend list! I do like talking to him... people might say we are gays but no we aren't... maybe in future after my heart is broken... I might marry him as he is also a broken heart! I will write script for movies and he will produce and direct them!!! He promised me that he will make a movie on my love story so watch out for a masterpiece!!!
He is a self proclaimed pool champ but he is no where close to being contender for being a champ. In the 1st Pool tourney I don't know how he reached the finals, maybe that's just his game, somehow he does it! He is always cool while playing... it seems so from his shots... there is something in him that keeps him winning games despite playing crap! In 2nd tourney... he met Yaseen again in the semis but this time he was trashed by the champion!
I saw his pic once and trust me he is a typical huge guy... looks will be damn innocent and the way of talking will be damn good... the throw but when in mood... these guys can trash you! So, just don't make him angry, do whatever he says even if its holy shit!
A huge flop with girls, they just dislike his talks! Girls should understand that he is a frustrated, heart broken guy. Hence he is bound to go crazy and desperate! Love him once and you will know what love is... you will then say that yes... Love does ruin life!
One thing that I seriously like in him is what he thinks of love... to him love comes only once in life! And he never expects anything in return from love! This is something I also say and that scares me! Something similar to prashu is always scray for all!
Did I miss anything? Oh yeah... he is a 22 year old virgin!!! Ahhh... I feel better than him >:)
1st attempt at horror
This blog is a request from Mamta... after I granted her a wish coz I was too excited the way Man Utd played against Arsenal... She asked me to write a blog... a horror blog... sort of story! Damn... I suck at fiction! Anyway here it is...
Its 1974... I am 14 and going to a farmer's house... a family friend... My father asked me to visit them so I started off in the morning. Took a train and went to a place called Canning in extreme south of West Bengal... yet to be developed... yet to have proper roads!
It was a 3hour journey... I reached there around 2.30PM. From there I took a launch... after 1 hour I thought yeah I have reached the destination but wait... it was just the beginning! There I came to know that my destination is 20kms away and the only way I can reach there is by walking... damn... walking 20kms in this West Bengal summer... it can freak out anyone!
I had no other option but to walk... there was no one around... my eyes reached the horizon and could find not even a dead plant! It was an open ground... within 15mins I find myself in the middle of nowhere and then... things started to get creepy... it was like someone is behind me... I kept on looking at the back and saw nothing... 5PM, 1 and half hours of walking and sun has started to set .
Its 1974... I am 14 and going to a farmer's house... a family friend... My father asked me to visit them so I started off in the morning. Took a train and went to a place called Canning in extreme south of West Bengal... yet to be developed... yet to have proper roads!
It was a 3hour journey... I reached there around 2.30PM. From there I took a launch... after 1 hour I thought yeah I have reached the destination but wait... it was just the beginning! There I came to know that my destination is 20kms away and the only way I can reach there is by walking... damn... walking 20kms in this West Bengal summer... it can freak out anyone!
I had no other option but to walk... there was no one around... my eyes reached the horizon and could find not even a dead plant! It was an open ground... within 15mins I find myself in the middle of nowhere and then... things started to get creepy... it was like someone is behind me... I kept on looking at the back and saw nothing... 5PM, 1 and half hours of walking and sun has started to set .
All this time I was walking at an amazing pace.. never before had I walked so quickly and now I started to walk faster but the sun was faster than me... 5.30PM... 2hrs of walking and I had no idea how much was left... the sun is gone, I see nothing in front of me and as I walk I start to hear noises... as if someone is walking behind me, a group of people following... I looked back and saw nothing. Now I realised that I haven't bought anything that will produce light... it was scary... I didn't know if I am going the right way... I didn't know if I would reach there!
I decided to keep walking straight... with no light every step was a question... is someone following me? Am I going in the right direction? What if I am lost? What if I don't get there? But to my rescue I started to see some lights... far away... it was close to the horizon! I was a bit relieved that I am going to reach somewhere.
After few minutes I found myself walking across a lake... it was dark and there were strange noises... just when I thought my worst fears are gone, a cool breeze started... it made noises and I was feeling like I have been destined to come here... I have been controlled by someone and brought here and now I will be the specimen of a horrifying lab test! I kept my nerves and started to run... I wasn't able to as I have already walked for some close to 3hrs!
Fighting all those moments I made it close to a township... and just when it seemed that I made it... I heard a voice... someone calling my name from behind... he was the head of the family... the family I had to meet! The horrifying experience was over after 3 and half hours of walking but the fear still stayed in my mind. I told my story to the family and they explained me what exactly happened to me!
When I was walking the sun was setting so the shadows was longer. My eyes could see a bit of the shadow and the brain made an image of it... sadly it made image from some horror story I heard before. After sunset... there was no sound and I was walking on recently cut crops... which made the sound and as there was feeling of loneliness... the sound seemed to have been coming from all directions! While I was walking across the lake, the sounds came from fishes swimming... I was in so much fear that I couldn't think of that possibility! The other sound was due to movement of dry leaves by the cool breeze!
Everything has a reason... you just need to find it out!
Inspired by a real life incident told to me by my father... I made many changes to it but the concept was similar!
I decided to keep walking straight... with no light every step was a question... is someone following me? Am I going in the right direction? What if I am lost? What if I don't get there? But to my rescue I started to see some lights... far away... it was close to the horizon! I was a bit relieved that I am going to reach somewhere.
After few minutes I found myself walking across a lake... it was dark and there were strange noises... just when I thought my worst fears are gone, a cool breeze started... it made noises and I was feeling like I have been destined to come here... I have been controlled by someone and brought here and now I will be the specimen of a horrifying lab test! I kept my nerves and started to run... I wasn't able to as I have already walked for some close to 3hrs!
Fighting all those moments I made it close to a township... and just when it seemed that I made it... I heard a voice... someone calling my name from behind... he was the head of the family... the family I had to meet! The horrifying experience was over after 3 and half hours of walking but the fear still stayed in my mind. I told my story to the family and they explained me what exactly happened to me!
When I was walking the sun was setting so the shadows was longer. My eyes could see a bit of the shadow and the brain made an image of it... sadly it made image from some horror story I heard before. After sunset... there was no sound and I was walking on recently cut crops... which made the sound and as there was feeling of loneliness... the sound seemed to have been coming from all directions! While I was walking across the lake, the sounds came from fishes swimming... I was in so much fear that I couldn't think of that possibility! The other sound was due to movement of dry leaves by the cool breeze!
Everything has a reason... you just need to find it out!
Inspired by a real life incident told to me by my father... I made many changes to it but the concept was similar!
Monday, February 11, 2008
20th birthday
Well... I am writing this basically for me to read in future... you can also read it... I don't mind!
Man Utd loses 1-2 to Man City after having most of the possession... the United defence never looked this shaky in ages! But... that didn't disappoint me... we played well... just weren't able to penetrate the way we do... Rooney was missing and so was Evra...
Match ended at 21.00hrs and left home for the party... friends as usual were late and we met at 9.30... from there we went to a restaurant where we had to wait for about half an hour... Cake was murdered and all the cannibals ate it... While having dinner I started talking dirty... explaining my friends the mood I am in and what I am doing and not doing...
We talked about Anupam and his love life... he was so shy... then I reminded my friends about the day I sat beside the girl which made the whole class go crazy and the new NAS teacher to go bonkers and not take the attendance... Anupran talked about the "Kaat li" incident... a girl's attendance was cut and all shouted "Girl's name ki to kaat li"... and a few more incidents were discussed!
It was 11.30 or so when we finished the dinner... and here in MH... people from North are being beaten up... thanks to some political reason... Out of the 8... 6 of us were from Bihar or had Bihar as their origin... Varun from MP and me from WB. Those 6 guys had the fear of getting beaten up... calls were frequently coming from their home asking if they are fine... Me and Varun decided to delay it... so we decided to go by bus instead of auto and it did work...
3 buses came and all were full... it was almost midnight and they were getting more scared... A guy said if anything bad happens... start beating su(that is what my friends call me)... birthday bumps... people will think we are beating a bihari and will leave us but to their rescue a 4th bus came which was empty... but we had to get down some 4kms from our destination... its still good... we would be close so we got up... it was about 12.10 when we got down and started walking...
The road was dark and empty... we were the only ones on the road... soon we saw a group approaching us... from the front... they were going somewhere from where we were returning... Aayush said nothing to worry they are group of Biharis... when they were passing by us... I don't know what went through Anupran and he started to sing "Ami je tomar... tumi je amar"... Aayush was right they were group of Biharis and they just laughed and went away... we discussed some movies and then back home...
P.S- Haven't mentioned few things...
Man Utd loses 1-2 to Man City after having most of the possession... the United defence never looked this shaky in ages! But... that didn't disappoint me... we played well... just weren't able to penetrate the way we do... Rooney was missing and so was Evra...
Match ended at 21.00hrs and left home for the party... friends as usual were late and we met at 9.30... from there we went to a restaurant where we had to wait for about half an hour... Cake was murdered and all the cannibals ate it... While having dinner I started talking dirty... explaining my friends the mood I am in and what I am doing and not doing...
We talked about Anupam and his love life... he was so shy... then I reminded my friends about the day I sat beside the girl which made the whole class go crazy and the new NAS teacher to go bonkers and not take the attendance... Anupran talked about the "Kaat li" incident... a girl's attendance was cut and all shouted "Girl's name ki to kaat li"... and a few more incidents were discussed!
It was 11.30 or so when we finished the dinner... and here in MH... people from North are being beaten up... thanks to some political reason... Out of the 8... 6 of us were from Bihar or had Bihar as their origin... Varun from MP and me from WB. Those 6 guys had the fear of getting beaten up... calls were frequently coming from their home asking if they are fine... Me and Varun decided to delay it... so we decided to go by bus instead of auto and it did work...
3 buses came and all were full... it was almost midnight and they were getting more scared... A guy said if anything bad happens... start beating su(that is what my friends call me)... birthday bumps... people will think we are beating a bihari and will leave us but to their rescue a 4th bus came which was empty... but we had to get down some 4kms from our destination... its still good... we would be close so we got up... it was about 12.10 when we got down and started walking...
The road was dark and empty... we were the only ones on the road... soon we saw a group approaching us... from the front... they were going somewhere from where we were returning... Aayush said nothing to worry they are group of Biharis... when they were passing by us... I don't know what went through Anupran and he started to sing "Ami je tomar... tumi je amar"... Aayush was right they were group of Biharis and they just laughed and went away... we discussed some movies and then back home...
P.S- Haven't mentioned few things...
Friday, February 1, 2008
1 year completed
I just saw that I completed 1 year of blogging with this id... 23 odd posts in 365 days... which makes it about 2 blogs every month... must say not a bad frequency...
Now... I am not going to thank the people who read my blogs... you should thank me for posting such wonderful blogs... blogs that made your day... blogs that made you think again!!! I won't thank God either... coz I disbelief in its existence but I thank God that it doesn't exist! I only thank the people who criticized me after reading my blogs... these people have done something good!
Now I want you to do something... in comments section write down the blog of mine you liked the most and the 1 you hated(optional) the most... If this is the 1st blog you are reading then you have missed so much... I feel sorry for you!
Ahhhh.... enough of crap... I just realised I completed one year so wrote this and yes keep on visiting my blog if you want to do something good in your wasted life!
Now... I am not going to thank the people who read my blogs... you should thank me for posting such wonderful blogs... blogs that made your day... blogs that made you think again!!! I won't thank God either... coz I disbelief in its existence but I thank God that it doesn't exist! I only thank the people who criticized me after reading my blogs... these people have done something good!
Now I want you to do something... in comments section write down the blog of mine you liked the most and the 1 you hated(optional) the most... If this is the 1st blog you are reading then you have missed so much... I feel sorry for you!
Ahhhh.... enough of crap... I just realised I completed one year so wrote this and yes keep on visiting my blog if you want to do something good in your wasted life!
Sunday, January 27, 2008
How do people change?
Today afternoon I was talking to Asha and after a long discussion I was left with one question- How do people change? We were talking about the behaviour of adults... how some neighbours talk and act. The competition that takes over the mind... the complex. My neighbour got jealous coz I bought a Manchester United jersey and said she wants to buy one for his son... who is about 10years old and has never watched a football game! What the heaven is this!
Me and my friends have no such competition, ego or complex between us and I guess its the same between you and your friends... We don't buy things just coz a friend of mine bought it and I need to keep up with him... we don't do things just coz a friend does it. We don't fight among us on this silly issues... I guess... same would have been may neighbour and your neighbour when they were of our age!!!
Now... what made them change so much? Why has competition, complex, ego taken over them... who knows after 10 years from now we could be in their shoes... but I don't want to be!
Me and my friends have no such competition, ego or complex between us and I guess its the same between you and your friends... We don't buy things just coz a friend of mine bought it and I need to keep up with him... we don't do things just coz a friend does it. We don't fight among us on this silly issues... I guess... same would have been may neighbour and your neighbour when they were of our age!!!
Now... what made them change so much? Why has competition, complex, ego taken over them... who knows after 10 years from now we could be in their shoes... but I don't want to be!
Tuesday, January 8, 2008
Camera has no role in sex
WARNING: Language used in this blog might not be good for your health!!!
Well... the rapid increase in number of MMS clips of couple having sex made me write this blog. But... in those clips you rarely see a couple... all you see is a girl and the tool of her bf/husband/whatever! And most of the times the tool is not wrapped... that is a different issue altogether!
First of all let me tell you that I am not making an opinion after going through 2-3 clips. I have downloaded many... no not for pleasure but to do some sort of survey... For pleasure I can watch porn or direct and produce them in my mind any time I want to! Anyway, coming to the point... I rarely found a guy showing their face on cam...
Maybe it just makes easy for the guy to upload it on the net so that the whole world can laugh at her... Well I don't know about that... I don't know why would one upload it on net... for what reasons but I am not interested in going there... In one MMS I heard a girl
saying that don't shoot my face... she was fine with her body being shot but not her face... but her damn bf... his mobile was pointing towards her face at the same time! Later on what I heard was outrageous... the girl says... 'Last time you said nothing will happen' and the guy replies 'This time no one will know'... Imbecile!
In another one a guy said he was looking at her from the camera... how dumb can a girl be to believe that her bf is not shooting her but just looking her from the mobile cam... And there are many more such things which shows stupidity of the girls and the dogs... I mean those guys taking advantage of it...
Oh for the sake of holy Satan, girls try to understand that camera plays no role in sex and you don't need to believe a guy like he can't do anything wrong. Even if that means break up, its good... better than millions of people, especially guys masturbating after having a look at your assets...
P.S- I didn't masturbate after looking at any mms clip... they make me sad!
Also P.S- This blog is not for you if you are fine with people looking at your naked pics/videos...
Well... the rapid increase in number of MMS clips of couple having sex made me write this blog. But... in those clips you rarely see a couple... all you see is a girl and the tool of her bf/husband/whatever! And most of the times the tool is not wrapped... that is a different issue altogether!
First of all let me tell you that I am not making an opinion after going through 2-3 clips. I have downloaded many... no not for pleasure but to do some sort of survey... For pleasure I can watch porn or direct and produce them in my mind any time I want to! Anyway, coming to the point... I rarely found a guy showing their face on cam...
Maybe it just makes easy for the guy to upload it on the net so that the whole world can laugh at her... Well I don't know about that... I don't know why would one upload it on net... for what reasons but I am not interested in going there... In one MMS I heard a girl
saying that don't shoot my face... she was fine with her body being shot but not her face... but her damn bf... his mobile was pointing towards her face at the same time! Later on what I heard was outrageous... the girl says... 'Last time you said nothing will happen' and the guy replies 'This time no one will know'... Imbecile!In another one a guy said he was looking at her from the camera... how dumb can a girl be to believe that her bf is not shooting her but just looking her from the mobile cam... And there are many more such things which shows stupidity of the girls and the dogs... I mean those guys taking advantage of it...
Oh for the sake of holy Satan, girls try to understand that camera plays no role in sex and you don't need to believe a guy like he can't do anything wrong. Even if that means break up, its good... better than millions of people, especially guys masturbating after having a look at your assets...
P.S- I didn't masturbate after looking at any mms clip... they make me sad!
Also P.S- This blog is not for you if you are fine with people looking at your naked pics/videos...
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