Ryan lacks

Ryan, the name I love, it lacks something. Although it has all the power and the sexiness in it, it does lack something really important. I asked everyone to call me Ryan, some did and some did not. In the beginning, it felt good when someone called me Ryan and in some days it really didn't matter who called me what.

Someone told me recently that Ryan sounds so artificial, suki is a way lot better than ryan and we entered in a tiny discussion. I did some thinking after that and found out yes I do not like Ryan. It maybe a good name but it just doesn't go with me or maybe I ould not like to be called Ryan.

Suki is what I am, it has uniqueness in it, that is how people really recognize me and maybe that is how I want people to recognize me. Thanks to that 'someone' to make me realize this and helping me not to lose my identity. >:D<

Once upon a time in my life

There was a time in my life when the world looked such a good place to be in. I used to go out, enjoy the beauty, enjoy every moment of it, used to love things and so much.

I used to make friends without thinking if it will be a 'good investment'. It was so natural, meet a person and then automatically start talking, exchange genuine smiles and then enjoy each other's company.

Those days when definition of tension was probably not to be found in the dictionary, the days where the word 'lie' was probably unknown, forget lying. The biggest of things that used to bring a smile on the face seems so vague now.

The days where knowledge was minimum, the consciousness about things surrounding was hazy, the days of pure glory, the days of pure happiness, the days of pure innocence, the days of life- carefree and never worried about the consequences.

Once upon a time... I was a kid.